So Yesterday

Yesterday I woke up at 3 am! Sleep was not working and I was sweating and I thought it was better to do my Tai Chi practice and and Yoga and I knew that afterwards I would feel like I had gotten amazing sleep. I was right. After the practice I was feeling good and after my shot of Apple Cider Vinegar after the whole process I was in the zone. I proceeded to try to write a good possible essay that I would have to write for the days interview ahead of me. Soon the time proceeded to 9am and I felt it was time to get on the move. I did some re-arranging of my apartment and then greeted the day outside with the thought of my upcoming interview in my thoughts. At first I had decided to go to Yamagata earlier and study at a coffee shop to prepare, but I saw that my pants were not the interview tip top shape that I wanted and so I decided to curtail my plans and instead study outside the Uniqlo Store in front of Sendai. Sometimes time helps that way. The store opened at 10 am and so I was able to do some studying in front of the store. I found some good pants at 10am on dot and wore them right out of the store. I like doing that that. It makes me feel like the purchase was good and needed and it was. I boarded the train to Yamagata and arrived about 1 hour early and did some preparations. The interview consisted of a hard test and then an interview. It turned out that 6 others had decided to apply for the same position and one of the applicants was a girl who had flown in from New Zealand! Can you believe that? Everyone was very impressive and I was able to see my good friend Dave. I had not seen him in a while and it was good to catch up. The truth is I like interviewing. It's like a performance for me and it was a great experience being able to use the Japanese to apply it to an interview. There were 6 panelists and a white room and it was quite official looking, but I liked that. I think if you want to get good at interviewing a great way to get good at this ability is to pick up a guitar and learn how to perform on stage. We have lots of different personalities and our stage personality is one version of ourselves that it is good to develop. In conclusion everybody should pick up a guitar and start playing. After the interview I met Asari and we had dinner. I grew a little sad afterwards, but there was this guy playing music in the train station as I was getting ready to head back home and the chords struck my heart and it felt really good. He was very nice and knew good English too. It was a good bond. The train home that night felt like it never ended. I drifted in and out of reality as the station names were droned over the train intercom as the train slithered back to Sendai. When I finally arrived rain was dusting the road like spray bottle water and I had this surreal spray mist following me home as I walked back to my apartment. It's really a kind of rain that I have only been able to find here. It's this very light rain that is more like a mist. The night ended on that note and in that way.

昨日は三時ぐらいに起きた。あたゆまに寝むらなかったも汗かっただから睡眠がしょうがないか。。と思うた。毎早朝太ちとヨガ必ずことになったのでその訓練決まったもでききったその後気に出った。いつもその訓練できたら

Hey

What if I could tell you that In a months time things would be different. The moon will shine differently, the sun will play differently and you will think different things then you do now and you will eat different ways then you do now. In a months time you my friend will be a different person. What if I told you that in a months time millions more will have been added to this Earth and millions will have left and millions of problems will have been solved and millions of problems will come. It makes no sense to fret now as everything will be so unpredictably different in a months time so smile in the mirror tomorrow when you first wake up and get adjusted to the new day ahead of you as it is for you and full of your possibility and know that you are a small part of something very large and therefore you are very large. It brings comfort to think like that. Go outside and say hello to an old person and tell them your dreams. They might smile back at you.

Sky Shooting

The serenity of the moment catches its breath and sends the sparks of infinity shooting in directions different than one would expect. That is how I found my motivations on this day. They were not altogether random, but more like a million puzzle pieces vying for position among the cloudless stratosphere. When the pieces fit together they blocked the true intention and so I had move them in such a way that they would not block the view, but instead reveal a pattern and would in summation make the view accented that would strengthen the overall purpose and make the view dance with the puzzle rather than hide behind it. What I noticed though at this point in time is that there was a candle staring me straight in the face. It's light was flickering as it too moved to a motion flicking it's shadows on the wall. The flame was a million different colors and spit out these frame by frame changing the the scenery surrounding into that color for a moment and so I was able to realize the transition of change as this candle poured forth its energy and made we witness such a spectacle. While this random pace of events was occurring I could help but notice the clock out of the right corner of my eye. The hands were twitching between 6 and 5 as if too say time hadn't completely stopped, but was refusing to move forward as well and yet all this time my feet stood grounded. I desired to move and yet was unable to somehow. My desires were thwarted by some unknown force, which I imagined also gave the clock it's  motions. I then saw a button on the table in front of me and noticed that I was able to move my hands. Somehow the movement of my hands were allowed and they changed color as the candle caused this transition to reflect on the room around me. I was able to touch the button and I pushed it and everything stopped. I could've heard a pin drop at that moment and I was in the room and the candle was out and it was a regular room with a table and and piano in the corner and a door leading outside and I could walk and so I did walk and I did go outside.

Balance

What we find that lies at the depth of relaxation is the simple concept of self. Here I am and this is what I am. It comes naturally as that is what is. Yet by very nature the self is playful and to be in this moment forever would be counterproductive. We bounce around and then find something new again. It can be hard to make decisions as everything is playful and so by creating a line of desire we can focus the playfulness into a random yet pleasant outcome. Everything is in the balance.

Ha for planning

As I was sitting for yoga today I couldn't figure out what I was going to do first. I didn't know where I was going to do my yoga as the place where I currently do yoga is quite small and I felt in confusion. Upon contemplating my situation I ended up doing my Tai Chi practice and then the quote that found me a couple of days previously found me once again.... "we plan... god laughs" How many times in life do we need to be reminded of this and yet I always hear him laughing. Everyday I try to plan out the details for my life and yet I always hear the laughing in the background and in the end I can't help but laugh as well. Everyday seems to work on a different beat and a new beat and I think the Earth is learning for the first time as well and that make sense as astronomers have dutifully noted how the Universe is expanding. As another favorite quote eloquently reads "expectation should be replaced with playfulness".... and the world is very playful indeed. We get caught in the planning and that is what can make decision making so difficult because we have this preconceived notion on how things will fall together. In reality even if we take the simplest processes everything happens with being playful. The seed and plant knows this as the fruit tree drops its fruit in the soil knowing that somehow a new fruit tree will grow or maybe it won't. I constantly have to be reminded by this, and yet it is always an amusing realization. However, this doesn't mean we shouldn't plan I believe. To the contrary.. we should plan... it's just important to laugh when we end up surprised

今日ヨガ座ってみながら全然一番最初のこと決まってできません。私の部屋の幅は狭くてだからどこやって悩んだも頭は混雑。あたゆまに状態考えと（対置）決まった始めった。

Effort

Everyone of us in life tries to improve themselves in the way that they see fit. Some do so by eating the right foods or by getting exercise. There are a myriad range of possibilities on how to go about this. I personally have focused on the ways of meditation, yoga and lately Tai Chi to improve and best reach my potential. What I have found lies at the basis of these practices is that they all require discipline and dedication. We all need something that tells us at the end of the day that we have done something worthy with the day that was given to us. Each day is a gift and although that is sometimes hard to realize... it is. By doing and completing the task 100% to completion we are doing more then simply checking off another activity. We are in essence practicing gratefulness, which lies at the center of human happiness and is a stepping stone to each one of us reaching our full potential. Effort is the reward in the end because it proves that we loved being here today so much that we we're willing to do something that was hard to do. We are showing compassion for life. I believe there are many ways to show compassion. We can show kind acts to people or simply and exercise it with the types of food we choose to consume. Each one of us strives for purpose and looks to try to be the most productive with the day that is given to us. That is the reason that coffee is a huge selling product. The immediate effect is 30 minutes of an undivided attention feeling and yet this state is easy to obtain and thus in the long run is rarely rewarding. What we find the most rewarding is effort. Many are starting to become aware of the huge benefits of fasting and it is a practice which has been used for thousands of years and this practice requires effort and is a challenge and yet when we finish the race we feel good and that feel good feeling spreads throughout us and manifests into physical accomplishments. We are able to have good creativity.. we are able to focus. Effort is the non-physical mental feeling that translates to physical realities. It is interesting that the most beneficial parts of the practices that I practice are the non-physical elements that are contained within them. For Meditation everything is non-physical as through the breath I just try to relax more and more with every breath. For Yoga it is the non-physical feeling of the dance of life as movement becomes effortless and yet full of effort and for Tai Chi there is the whole concept of imagining a sphere and through imagination the physical sphere manifests... or does it. These days we are connecting more and more with the non-physical in order to put meaning to our everyday lives and we find that these non-physical processes require lots of effort and yet reveal the most reward. Coffee then turns to a mere taste and food turns to mere taste. The true power is held within. As John Denver likes to say as well.
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