Sky Shooting

The serenity of the moment catches its breath and sends the sparks of infinity shooting in directions different than one would expect. That is how I found my motivations on this day. They were not altogether random, but more like a million puzzle pieces vying for position among the cloudless stratosphere. When the pieces fit together they blocked the true intention and so I had move them in such a way that they would not block the view, but instead reveal a pattern and would in summation make the view accented that would strengthen the overall purpose and make the view dance with the puzzle rather than hide behind it. What I noticed though at this point in time is that there was a candle staring me straight in the face. It's light was flickering as it too moved to a motion flicking it's shadows on the wall. The flame was a million different colors and spit out these frame by frame changing the the scenery surrounding into that color for a moment and so I was able to realize the transition of change as this candle poured forth its energy and made we witness such a spectacle. While this random pace of events was occurring I could help but notice the clock out of the right corner of my eye. The hands were twitching between 6 and 5 as if too say time hadn't completely stopped, but was refusing to move forward as well and yet all this time my feet stood grounded. I desired to move and yet was unable to somehow. My desires were thwarted by some unknown force, which I imagined also gave the clock it's  motions. I then saw a button on the table in front of me and noticed that I was able to move my hands. Somehow the movement of my hands were allowed and they changed color as the candle caused this transition to reflect on the room around me. I was able to touch the button and I pushed it and everything stopped. I could've heard a pin drop at that moment and I was in the room and the candle was out and it was a regular room with a table and and piano in the corner and a door leading outside and I could walk and so I did walk and I did go outside.

Balance

What we find that lies at the depth of relaxation is the simple concept of self. Here I am and this is what I am. It comes naturally as that is what is. Yet by very nature the self is playful and to be in this moment forever would be counterproductive. We bounce around and then find something new again. It can be hard to make decisions as everything is playful and so by creating a line of desire we can focus the playfulness into a random yet pleasant outcome. Everything is in the balance.

Ha for planning

As I was sitting for yoga today I couldn't figure out what I was going to do first. I didn't know where I was going to do my yoga as the place where I currently do yoga is quite small and I felt in confusion. Upon contemplating my situation I ended up doing my Tai Chi practice and then the quote that found me a couple of days previously found me once again.... "we plan... god laughs" How many times in life do we need to be reminded of this and yet I always hear him laughing. Everyday I try to plan out the details for my life and yet I always hear the laughing in the background and in the end I can't help but laugh as well. Everyday seems to work on a different beat and a new beat and I think the Earth is learning for the first time as well and that make sense as astronomers have dutifully noted how the Universe is expanding. As another favorite quote eloquently reads "expectation should be replaced with playfulness".... and the world is very playful indeed. We get caught in the planning and that is what can make decision making so difficult because we have this preconceived notion on how things will fall together. In reality even if we take the simplest processes everything happens with being playful. The seed and plant knows this as the fruit tree drops its fruit in the soil knowing that somehow a new fruit tree will grow or maybe it won't. I constantly have to be reminded by this, and yet it is always an amusing realization. However, this doesn't mean we shouldn't plan I believe. To the contrary.. we should plan... it's just important to laugh when we end up surprised

今日ヨガ座ってみながら全然一番最初のこと決まってできません。私の部屋の幅は狭くてだからどこやって悩んだも頭は混雑。あたゆまに状態考えと（対置）決まった始めった。

Effort

Everyone of us in life tries to improve themselves in the way that they see fit. Some do so by eating the right foods or by getting exercise. There are a myriad range of possibilities on how to go about this. I personally have focused on the ways of meditation, yoga and lately Tai Chi to improve and best reach my potential. What I have found lies at the basis of these practices is that they all require discipline and dedication. We all need something that tells us at the end of the day that we have done something worthy with the day that was given to us. Each day is a gift and although that is sometimes hard to realize... it is. By doing and completing the task 100% to completion we are doing more then simply checking off another activity. We are in essence practicing gratefulness, which lies at the center of human happiness and is a stepping stone to each one of us reaching our full potential. Effort is the reward in the end because it proves that we loved being here today so much that we we're willing to do something that was hard to do. We are showing compassion for life. I believe there are many ways to show compassion. We can show kind acts to people or simply and exercise it with the types of food we choose to consume. Each one of us strives for purpose and looks to try to be the most productive with the day that is given to us. That is the reason that coffee is a huge selling product. The immediate effect is 30 minutes of an undivided attention feeling and yet this state is easy to obtain and thus in the long run is rarely rewarding. What we find the most rewarding is effort. Many are starting to become aware of the huge benefits of fasting and it is a practice which has been used for thousands of years and this practice requires effort and is a challenge and yet when we finish the race we feel good and that feel good feeling spreads throughout us and manifests into physical accomplishments. We are able to have good creativity.. we are able to focus. Effort is the non-physical mental feeling that translates to physical realities. It is interesting that the most beneficial parts of the practices that I practice are the non-physical elements that are contained within them. For Meditation everything is non-physical as through the breath I just try to relax more and more with every breath. For Yoga it is the non-physical feeling of the dance of life as movement becomes effortless and yet full of effort and for Tai Chi there is the whole concept of imagining a sphere and through imagination the physical sphere manifests... or does it. These days we are connecting more and more with the non-physical in order to put meaning to our everyday lives and we find that these non-physical processes require lots of effort and yet reveal the most reward. Coffee then turns to a mere taste and food turns to mere taste. The true power is held within. As John Denver likes to say as well.
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I find my self In a Place

Soup Bowl

Fighting everyday because you've seen all around the world

Soup Bowl's steam and the sound of silence hits your soul

See that everyone is living onto another day

See that the cause of satisfaction is a moments grace

Sliding door open, waiting on the call of the sound

Breeze coming in slowly covering the town

Gee what's your place you never will really know

All you see growing around you is the constant growth

A drum beat comes so close to the heart

Picking up the pieces you see the fire start

Blink once more and it's the sparkle hitting the tide

Pale blue water hits as the waves collide

What you find, what you want to see

And you know while sitting the middle of a round room

That the sound that startles in the sea

Is the scenery calling in the Steinway Piano

And the keys that shatter across the dark

And the sweetness that swoons around the foray of the room

Making little sound

Except the whispers of the dark piano calling across the night

Calling in the night, Calling in the night

In the soup bowls reflection I see my face

Perfectly aligned in this ring of space

Filling in all the candles across the world

See the the horizon line stretch the coast

Hazy fields wash in the dark

swishing back and forth like paper following the stars

And the first star comes at the blink of the night

Comes right in makes the feeling right

What you find what you want to see

And you know while sitting in the middle of a round room

That the sound that startles in the sea

Is the scenery calling in the Steinway Piano

And the keys that shatter across the dark

The sweetness that swoons around the foray of the room

Making little sound

Except the whispers of the dark piano calling across the night

Today is Monday